the rose and the garden

I remember the urge to cry as I was dying.

They say fire burn our wings
and yet
I am
the fire

You'll find that even storms can come out at as soothing.
I'll be like heavy rain on Sunday mornings. You'll learn to cherish me with time. A secret memory of yours.
Petrichor perfume
A song you mother used to sing while you were falling asleep.
I will be a gentle reminder that the sun is coming.
Take your time to weep.
And, you'll miss me, somehow, but it's not going to break your heart.
You will forget me as time goes by.
There are so many other mornings and I'm just a Sunday.

I am your rose with diamond eyes.
Don't expect kindness from me.
I have this bad temper. I may be good looking, but I am also raw. They made me this way. I will tell you all the things you don't want to hear and I will fight. I won't tell I love you. I hate you most of the time, don't you know I dream of killing you?
My hands around your throat
your hips,
your lips.
Your lips against mine, sweet poison.
My lips against yours, I can feel your heart skip a beat.
You didn't see that coming.

Holy but not hollow.

The only time you will see me
take off my petals
will be my time of dying
a small death between your fingers.

But you know, to make roses bloom all over again you must cut them.
Don't be scared to hurt my feelings, I'll forgive you for reminding me to keep my feet on the ground. I only love you because you make my bleed.
And if bleed then I'm alive.
And If I feel then I'm alive.
And If I can die the I'm alive.
Start it all over again. Come heal me with these gentle eyes. I need you to touch me.

This heart of mine is more than a delicate flower.
It does not fear the storms for it brings water nor does it fears the burning sun. It is in my nature to harden and to thrive, only I fear unwary hands.
Learn how to pick me and never will my thorns hurts your fingers.

Feel free to come in my garden and to pick what flowers please you. I am not picky when it comes to feelings. I don't know them et they don't know me
they come
and go